Current mood:

worried

anxiety
Bla, I get such anxiety attacks when it comes to meeting new people and doing illegal things on my own. I'm much happier when I'm showing off to impress people. Being at social gatherings with a new boyfriend is cause enough for cardiac arrest especially when he's not gonna be able to be at my side the whole time. Hopefully Steph and Rich will whow up later in the night to keep me sane and loosen up a bit. I think I have a slight case of Agoraphobia when I'm attached to someone. It never happens when I'm alone. I think I'm constantly worried about making my SO look bad. Its so irrational. I havent met any of his friends yet so tonight should be really interesting. This would be so much easier if we could go together. That was the original plan and now its not, so I don't think I'll even get to see him after. Maybe I just shouldn't go tonight. I dunno.